This is likely something that many of us are dealing with.
At least I am dealing with it, and I would like to hear from others, as to how they might relate.
I feel like I’ve lost so many years due to my mental illness, and I am still losing years.
For those in recovery, and having lost their jobs (in a lot of cases, having lost everything), I’d sincerely like to hear how regaining employment, will help you to “live.”
I mean, if you’ve had a definite remission of your symptoms, then I understand. A renewed sense of dignity? I get it.
For me, my symptoms have never been in remission. And, I can’t even volunteer because of them.
So, blogging about my life (its wins and its losses), will have to be my source of dignity.
Because I won’t get it from not showering or from not brushing my teeth enough. Or from losing a number of “friends” because I now have boundaries. And so on.
(I am reminded that at least I had “friends.”)
“Living” is what I find missing from my life. But, I also think of life differently today, then I did, say 20 years ago (which may account for the emphasis I put on “living”).
20 years ago, before my diagnosis, I had connection.
It may have been superficial and flighty, but I had it.
Today, I have some connection, but I can’t take care of myself worth a damn. So, it makes doing all the other stuff I did before, seem like I am missing out now, since I can’t do those things anymore.
Again, I’d like to hear from all of you about how you’re “living” your lives. What you’re doing, what it takes, etc.
That and I hope this post finds each of you well!