How and where does someone with schizophrenia (or schizoaffective disorder), learn better insight?
Sure, you may pick up a few tips in the counselor’s office, or by visiting with your psychiatrist 15-minutes, three times a year.
But, for me, I now take more extreme measures.
I google, read, write, blog… learn… more about the world and my place in it.
And, quite frankly, the way that I grew up has set a spark for me, the way that nothing else has.
In wanting a better, more purpose-filled life!
I will tell you that there were times in my life before my first psychotic break, that I was losing it, clearly losing it… but, I kept on, which I think, can make the situation worse when things finally do unravel.
In any event, I recall these little notebooks that I kept, full of philosophical writings, that unfortunately, I no longer have.
So, as things were beginning to get bad for me, those “mini” journal entries (if you will), became the only bits of wisdom that I was able to hold onto.
And then, the first break.
Man, it is so challenging telling you all how that felt!
I vividly remember going from working full-time, taking a college class, working part-time, and dating; and that was about the size of my goings on, friends.
I was doing too much at once! Way too much.
To the end that I could have taken it easy, I didn’t.
In fact, I was largely incapable of taking life easy in those days.
Today is a little different.
It’s been awhile since any breaks, and the main thing I am seemingly doing these days is writing (blogging) about my life.
Not all bad.
In fact, it is far from bad, considering what I am dealing with.
If I can help someone, anyone, feel a sense of hope (or cure a sense of frustration)… whatever I am able to do… then, I feel successful!
And, no one can take that away from me.