When Your Mind Plays Tricks On You: An Exercise In Awareness (Part 3/3)
In this three part series, I’ve been sharing instances of “when my mind plays tricks on me.”
Now, I’d like to share with you (as I’ve done before on this blog), just how difficult it is to keep the blog up and running.
My diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder (depressive type), and it is incredibly challenging to not obsess over the kinds of things, that other bloggers, don’t think about (and probably take for granted).
I’m not complaining, but when I say that I want to let America and the rest of the world know how bad the suffering associated with my diagnosis (and other severe mental illnesses) is, I’m sharing with you just the “facts.”
On the one hand, I feel good having started this blog. And, on the other, I have people who support it (and want to hear from me).
So, you might be thinking—what’s the problem?
And, the answer is that I am ill, and I am doing my best to manage my illness.
All of these things are prime examples of the paranoia and delusions I experience. Not to mention the auditory hallucinations that reiterate just how bad of an idea it is to have this blog (or any of the dozen or so blogs, I’ve ultimately gotten rid of).
NOTE: I am not planning on getting rid of this blog anytime soon.
Mentally Ill In America
He/Him. I write #poetry and #blog about #mentalhealth. We are only here for a sliver of time #lifelonglearner #helper #schizoaffective. Opinions are my own.
I think it’s very impressive that you’ve managed to keep up this blog despite all that you’re having to deal with each day.
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Aww, thank you. I appreciate it. I know I’m not alone, and that’s important information. 🙂
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So good to hear you saying you’re not getting rid of your blog Milo.
I can’t imagine how you must feel at times, but I’m listening and hearing you, always. Caz
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Thank you Caz. One day at a time, or for me, it’s one hour at a time. 🙂
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It can be hard blogging and taking care of yourself with all what comes with that. Be easy on yourself. For me it’s difficult too sometimes but ultimately you need to find out what is good for you at your pace.
(Isn’t that easier said than done?)
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It’s easier said than done, but right now, I am managing. Thanks so much for your insight!
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🙂
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