Feelings (A Poem)

When I slow down, breathe deeply, and relax,
I feel as though I will always be where I am at!
When does the anxiety go away?
When do the voices subside?
When does the paranoia disappear?
When does the depression wane?

I want another shot at this!
At living!
At life!
But, I don’t believe it is possible for me.
I used to be so active, so vibrant, so alive,
But, now I just struggle.

Oh, I still have hopes and dreams,
They’re just different.
Like, getting a full night’s sleep,
Or, hoping no one will break into my house and off me.
Or maybe, being able to walk again at a gym or even outside!

In the meantime, I listen to music and write for my blog.
It passes the time and sometimes, I feel the better for having done these things!
As I always say (affectionately even), one day at a time.
One day at a time.
One day at a time.
One day at a time.

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