Where do you suppose you would be, had you not become ill?
I think the question is interesting, because I really was heading downhill and quick like when I became full-blown ill.
What I know now is that had I been able to tolerate antipsychotics earlier on in the treatment process, I might be a bit better off.
While not complaining, I do take into account the experiences I would have likely missed out on, as I did manage to squeeze in a few things, that I probably wouldn’t have been able to, had I been on an antipsychotic regimen.
But, it may not be helpful to compare where I am today to where I was yesterday, except to note that I am much more stable than the times I “broke,” and as I’ve worked hard by “trying” for better experiences.
So yes, I am more stable today because I am taking all of my medication. And, I won’t mince words for that.
Do you ever think about the old you, and have some thoughts about that person?