This Is Treatment Resistant Schizoaffective Disorder II

It’s quite likely that the medications I am taking for my psychosis are providing me with some protection, but not a great amount.

Right now, I am anxious and I want to die, but I know that you only get one life.

Thus, taking it away, even though I am struggling immensely, seems like a bad idea.

What needs to happen is that I need to get on a good medication regimen.

One of my problems is that I already weigh 400 lbs., so any additional medication changes need to be carefully thought out.

I have been on my current antipsychotic medication for around 15 years, give or take.

So, I guess it’s just time to find something new.

None of this is easy. My brain worsening is what is happening, and I don’t take that very lightly.

I am just frantic.


    1. My symptoms have been worsening. I think it happened so gradually, that I can’t say when it actually began. I get the part about the label… and, I think I don’t have all the answers about whether I’ve been treatment resistant or not, and for how long. What I know now is that My symptoms feel uncontrolled, in comparison to what they once were. We shall see. I have something I want to try and that may or may not work. I’m trying to be hopeful. 😉

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  1. I’m obviously not a dr but i went from abilify for over five years to latuda which i think is the same type of med and this week aside it has done wonders for me and i weight close to that mark as well with no change in weight for at least six months. Again just my experience i had to switch as the abilify just wasn’t doing anything for my moods or ideation

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  2. Ignorant question and you don’t have to answer if you’re not comfortable: Are you getting regular blood tests for cholesterol, triglycerides, blood glucose? As anti psychotics tend to raise those, and the risk of metabolic syndrome and therefore heart problems.

    My friend C developed type 2 diabetes due to long term anti psychotic use, and it’s terrible how her doctors never told her of those risks. Of course anti psychotics are very essential but just like monitoring various organ function when someone is on lithium.

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    1. I’ve been on an antipsychotic (abilify), which has a lower rate of additional issues (to my knowledge anyhow). I haven’t been on a mood stabilizer that required blood tests in awhile (The one I take doesn’t require them). And, tardive dsyknesia has not happened yet. Finally, I wasn’t really given a big rundown on diabetes, in the beginning or ever. Just that I might get it due to my weight.

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