On days where I’ve gotten a decent amount of sleep, I try to keep a schedule.
When there is a lot going on, I tend not to keep a schedule.
My schedule is something I’ve spent a great deal of trial and error on.
And, my current schedule iteration is helpful to the extent that I know what I should be doing.
But, let me tell you, what I should be doing is the exception by far, over what I am actually able to do.
I am trying to come to terms with life and death as well, and that has not been easy.
I really only want to focus on the day at hand, and getting enough sleep is really the only thing that even makes a decent day, possible.
As for life and death (and having psychosis), I ask myself, what kind of thinking do I want?
For instance, should I worry incessantly (which I tend to do), or should I worry and find some amount of peace, at the same time?
All or none thinking is forcing me to focus “elsewhere,” like in the middle on all things that pertain to my illness.
And, how is striving for the middle helping me?
I actually have a lot more work to do, but it’s a lot better than the extremes, which I desperately want to avoid.