I’m coming off a particularly challenging time with my mental illness.
What I’m going through is cyclical.
And, the worst of it probably took place today.
The raw emotion I was going to use to write this post has slipped away, which is good, because that means things are on the upswing.
Now, I’m not sharing this information to garner attention, but to bring about awareness, so please don’t assume anything negative, or take things in a negative fashion.
In general, living every day with mental illness is difficult, with days like today taking the cake.
On those days that do take the cake, I want to be all but dead.
The challenge is not will I hurt myself today, it’s how long will it take for certain particular fears surrounding my suicidal thinking, to dissipate.
The fears I speak of are, “am I strong enough to withstand what I’m going through?”
And gratefully, I am. Or at least I tell myself that I am.
And, in any event, I have been. 🙂
All mental illness is bad, and anyone who calls it quits has my understanding, but I myself, want to be helpful.
I know (as do many of my readers) what those toughest days look and feel like.
So, the point of this post…
1) You are not alone. You never know what others are going through.
2) I get it. I’m someone who lives it.
3) There is help available. In the U.S., you can call a hotline (800-273-8255).
Outside of this, I hope everyone has a good day today!
Mentally Ill In America 
I’m glad things are on the upswing now.
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Me too. When things are that bad, I just try and sleep it off as I am able. What do you do?
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I mostly try to keep myself occupied with something to keep time from passing so slowly.
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I like that. Thank you and thanks for sharing.
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Thank you so much for sharing this. As someone who suffers from depression and anxiety, I definitely have days that are worse than the rest. Like you said, you are definitely not alone. I hope you feel better soon.
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What do you do when times are at their toughest?
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I talk to my therapist to get a different perspective of things. Meditation and self care helps a lot too. And sometimes I just sleep till I feel better.
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Thank you for sharing what is working!
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You’re welcome! What works for you?
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When I’m not so far down that all I can do is reach out (which is a good thing), I will try and distract myself by doing something. However, that isn’t easy for me, so I usually just end up being in a state of reaching out. Again, that’s good. I have the support network (also good), but I wish I didn’t have to lean on them so much.
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It’s great you have people you can lean on and it is difficult having to depend on others but it can be vital sometimes.
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Thank you! I will also add that it’s rare to have a good support system. I mean, I am extremely fortunate.
I hope you have a good weekend!
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I absolutely agree. Have a good weekend too!
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