I’m coming off a particularly challenging time with my mental illness.
What I’m going through is cyclical.
And, the worst of it probably took place today.
The raw emotion I was going to use to write this post has slipped away, which is good, because that means things are on the upswing.
Now, I’m not sharing this information to garner attention, but to bring about awareness, so please don’t assume anything negative, or take things in a negative fashion.
In general, living every day with mental illness is difficult, with days like today taking the cake.
On those days that do take the cake, I want to be all but dead.
The challenge is not will I hurt myself today, it’s how long will it take for certain particular fears surrounding my suicidal thinking, to dissipate.
The fears I speak of are, “am I strong enough to withstand what I’m going through?”
And gratefully, I am. Or at least I tell myself that I am.
And, in any event, I have been. 🙂
All mental illness is bad, and anyone who calls it quits has my understanding, but I myself, want to be helpful.
I know (as do many of my readers) what those toughest days look and feel like.
So, the point of this post…
1) You are not alone. You never know what others are going through.
2) I get it. I’m someone who lives it.
3) There is help available. In the U.S., you can call a hotline (800-273-8255).
Outside of this, I hope everyone has a good day today!