Good morning, fellow bloggers! 🙂 Available (and, complimentary to my readers) as of November 15, 2020… “Here Until I’m Gone: 40 Poems About Trauma, Illness, And The Inevitability Of Death” by Mio Angelo. Check it out here… mentallyillinamerica.family.blog/booklets/ And, if you’re so inclined… Please leave a comment about the content in the comments section! Reviews […]Read More My Poem Book Is Complimentary And Is Now Available!
I am tired. I have been fighting schizoaffective disorder symptoms for 20 years. And, I feel like it never ends! I try very hard. I make the effort. And, while I haven’t always been where I am at today, where I am at today, at times, sucks! Thoughts of death and suicide pervade my mind […]Read More Mental Illness And Trauma
Sometimes I go to bed with gratitude.I am grateful when I can see good things.Granted, it’s not every day.But, it is some days.Some days, I can see the peace, feel the happiness, experience the love!It does happen!It will happen again!It might happen tonight!Read More Sometimes, I Go To Bed Grateful (A Poem)
I want to die.I want my life to be over.I want to go now.I am tired.Tired of pretending.Tired of putting on a front.This life is not easy.It is not good.Why must we act like it is?Except to make ourselves feel better?I can honestly tell you that I wear a mask.It protects me from you.You are […]Read More Worsening Depression (A Poem)
I want the pain to stop.All the decisions, the outcomes, everything.Please let it go away.For good.I can try to manage things better after a nap.Or tomorrow.Soon.But, please make it stop!Read More Please Make It Stop (A Poem)
Helpful: Community. Boundaries. Suffering. The push-pull of perfectionism. To always make the effort! Being polite and conversational. Being industrious. Learning to better trust myself amid schizoaffective disorder. Learning to “adjust” over time. Being organized in most ways. Listening to music. Having a variety of hobbies. Giving back via this blog. Having a healthy, primary relationship. […]Read More 31 Things That Have Either Helped Me Or That Have Not
I am troubled by my delusions and hallucinations. As someone who has chronic mental health issues, I absolutely hate getting “stuck” with, in many cases, having to ”connect the dots.” Imagine if you will, that you have affixed your attention, on a person (or persons), and you all of a sudden, begin to think that […]Read More Symptoms That Trouble Me And How I Deal With Them
I’ve written about some of this before, adding more detail with each update. My voices started when I was 24 (or at least that’s when I first started getting treatment for them). After two psychotic breaks, they diagnosed me as having Psychosis NOS. I enrolled in college that same year! I had just enough arrogance […]Read More How My Life Changed With These Schizophrenia Symptoms
Disclaimer: This Site is intended to provide general knowledge, and is not intended to serve as medical advice of any sort. Changes in mental health treatment should never be made without consulting your health care provider. This has been my doctor’s and family’s approach to helping me with schizoaffective disorder. It sometimes takes awhile, but […]Read More Struggling? Newly Diagnosed? A Message For Families Of Those With Psychosis!
Earlier today, I wrote about possibly having treatment resistant schizoaffective disorder. I already have schizoaffective disorder, but things seem to have taken a turn for the worse. What’s getting at me a lot right now is a belief that I’ve held that I am doing “so well,” in spite of being severely mentally ill. I […]Read More The Prospect Of Taking Clozapine
In fact, I sometimes welcome it! For me, it’s always been about the journey… about the search for truth! This blog has done (and continues to do) wonders for me! Early this morning, I got a call from my psychiatrist who I had recently seen. He thinks right now, that I quite likely have treatment […]Read More I Don’t Mind Being Wrong
There’s a lot of people who don’t feel what I feel day in and day out. Maybe 99.5% do not, according to the research. And, it’s not like there’s a scale for schizophrenia! Schizophrenia is an illness that you clearly have or you clearly don’t. You either are (or have been symptomatic) or you’re not. […]Read More “Overcoming” Needs To Be Discussed More Frequently
I try and I try and I try… and, I do get some satisfaction in life. 🙂 It mainly comes from knowing that my life (and life in general) is a gift! There is a lot of difficulty that comes with living, but I work hard personally to be able to participate in those little […]Read More The Gift And The Fight
I am unusual for someone who deals with schizophrenia, in that in many instances, I am good with people. It hasn’t always been this way, and things were a lot tougher, when I had next to no awareness that the way I dealt with people was a strength. In the past, I’d attract all sorts […]Read More What Are You Good At?
Where do you suppose you would be, had you not become ill? I think the question is interesting, because I really was heading downhill and quick like when I became full-blown ill. What I know now is that had I been able to tolerate antipsychotics earlier on in the treatment process, I might be a […]Read More Where Would You Be…?
I was reading about recovery in schizophrenia. And, quite honestly, there is a lot that doesn’t add up. One site on the subject says that 25% of first episode psychotic break, go on to recover. On the same site, they say that another 25% go on to almost completely recover after a first episode psychotic […]Read More Who Has The Most To Benefit From Lying?
I got the message yesterday morning, but I didn’t see it until late evening. My favorite blogging theme is now retired. So, I set out to find something with (hopefully) a bit more longevity. I settled on Intergalactic, as I’ve seen it around for a few years. Any how, I think my site looks nice […]Read More My Favorite Blogging Theme Has Been Retired
Recently, I was interacting with a post from a well known company on social media. The post took a shot at persons with schizophrenia. It was up for about 30 minutes (at the most), because I publicly called them out! In that time, there were dozens of “shares,” plus a comment by someone who didn’t […]Read More You Are Who You Are
What I strongly dislike about my situation: I didn’t do anything to create it, I have to live with it, and it cannot be fixed! Now, I am sure we all have things to bitch about… but, a mind that never heals? How does one remedy that? It’s not the same as having a condition […]Read More The Medication Adjustment