Good morning, fellow bloggers! 🙂 Available (and, complimentary to my readers) as of November 15, 2020… “Here Until I’m Gone: 40 Poems About Trauma, Illness, And The Inevitability Of Death” by Mio Angelo. Check it out here… mentallyillinamerica.family.blog/booklets/ And, if … Continue Reading My Poem Book Is Complimentary And Is Now Available!
I am tired. I have been fighting schizoaffective disorder symptoms for 20 years. And, I feel like it never ends! I try very hard. I make the effort. And, while I haven’t always been where I am at today, where … Continue Reading Mental Illness And Trauma
Sometimes I go to bed with gratitude.I am grateful when I can see good things.Granted, it’s not every day.But, it is some days.Some days, I can see the peace, feel the happiness, experience the love!It does happen!It will happen again!It … Continue Reading Sometimes, I Go To Bed Grateful (A Poem)
I want to die.I want my life to be over.I want to go now.I am tired.Tired of pretending.Tired of putting on a front.This life is not easy.It is not good.Why must we act like it is?Except to make ourselves feel … Continue Reading Worsening Depression (A Poem)
I want the pain to stop.All the decisions, the outcomes, everything.Please let it go away.For good.I can try to manage things better after a nap.Or tomorrow.Soon.But, please make it stop!
Helpful: Community. Boundaries. Suffering. The push-pull of perfectionism. To always make the effort! Being polite and conversational. Being industrious. Learning to better trust myself amid schizoaffective disorder. Learning to “adjust” over time. Being organized in most ways. Listening to music. … Continue Reading 31 Things That Have Either Helped Me Or That Have Not
I am troubled by my delusions and hallucinations. As someone who has chronic mental health issues, I absolutely hate getting “stuck” with, in many cases, having to ”connect the dots.” Imagine if you will, that you have affixed your attention, … Continue Reading Symptoms That Trouble Me And How I Deal With Them
I’ve written about some of this before, adding more detail with each update. My voices started when I was 24 (or at least that’s when I first started getting treatment for them). After two psychotic breaks, they diagnosed me as … Continue Reading How My Life Changed With These Schizophrenia Symptoms
Disclaimer: This Site is intended to provide general knowledge, and is not intended to serve as medical advice of any sort. Changes in mental health treatment should never be made without consulting your health care provider. This has been my … Continue Reading Struggling? Newly Diagnosed? A Message For Families Of Those With Psychosis!
What I strongly dislike about my situation: I didn’t do anything to create it, I have to live with it, and it cannot be fixed! Now, I am sure we all have things to bitch about… but, a mind that … Continue Reading The Medication Adjustment
I wanted to be on less medication.And, I tried doing so for 5 weeks.Is 5 weeks long enough to know?It was for me.And, some day, I will try scaling back again.
I thought it was fitting to update my about page, now that I’ve been an active blogger for one year. I hope all of you are doing okay. I know it’s a bumpy ride. I sometimes feel as though I’ve … Continue Reading New “About” Page
It is here,The last day/night,For a long time,Maybe forever.I can and will be triumphant!And, is it just me, but no matter how difficult things are,I know that life is a gift!A blessing from somewhere or nowhere!Who knows?In any event, I’ll … Continue Reading The Last Day / Night (A Poem)
I am going through a 1/3 strength reduction of my antipsychotic medication. It’s been more of a challenge these past two months, and that is entirely due to the fact that I have less of this main medication in my … Continue Reading My Antipsychotic Reduction
I don’t think I’m too far off when I say, that there is a range of functioning capabilities among people who have schizophrenia. And, that no matter the level of functioning, things do change (but not always in the best … Continue Reading Living Day-To-Day With Severe And Chronic Mental Illness
This week is my one year blogging anniversary! With that, I am just wondering whether you think there is a … Continue Reading My One Year Blogging Anniversary
This is something that I started thinking about a few weeks ago. Mental illness and the struggle that often accompanies it = Survival mode. And, that sucks! So, in the same time frame, I asked myself what can I do, … Continue Reading Why Having Mental Illness Constantly Feels Like Being In Survival Mode
I once saw a way.I felt a path.I knew of a potentiality.For me.It was a different sort of route.One that made me see!I couldn’t imagine life any other way!I will share my thoughts.My feelings are accessible.I am ready to go … Continue Reading A Way (A Poem)
So, the “ring,” for me, is waking up every day and “trying” as best as I can to follow a checklist, which includes self-care items and a few chores. More often than not, I do poorly. I call it failure, … Continue Reading Why I Keep Getting Back In The Ring (So To Speak)
In order to keep interested in your blog (and mine), I am experimenting with posting once a week moving forward. I am grateful for this blog and I am hopeful that I can say what I want to say in … Continue Reading Implementing A New Posting Schedule
I am currently dealing with my schizoaffective disorder by taking 33% less of my antipsychotic. My doctor and I are working together on this medication reduction, and I do feel a hint of more energy – 33% more – which … Continue Reading An Update On My Mental Health
For me, it matters that I try.But, even trying will only get me so far!I easily become tired.I have very little energy to do things.I guess this is my life!This is the prize I’ve won!Wonderful, right?I’m the winner of a … Continue Reading As Good As It Gets (A Poem)
I must weather the storm.Today and every day.But, I will get through.And, it will happen again.I sometimes wonder why.I am not one for self-pity.But, I do feel a lot of anxiety right now!I know I am not alone, yet there … Continue Reading I Must Weather The Storm (A Poem)
What are the attitudes that bug you the most? I am particularly bothered by people, who, in general, ask what I do for a living? I get that that’s an icebreaker. Something else that bothers me is people in general. … Continue Reading Pervasive Attitudes About People With Mental Illness
I don’t want to justify… nope.And, I don’t want to bullshit.Myself or you!I want to be straight with us both!Always.That’s why I get intimate.Transparent even.Sometimes breaking boundaries.Sometimes holding fast to them.l continue to work on things!You continue to work on … Continue Reading I Don’t Want To Justify, This Is Not My Bullshit (A Poem)