Good morning, fellow bloggers! 🙂 Available (and, complimentary to my readers) as of November 15, 2020… “Here Until I’m Gone: 40 Poems About Trauma, Illness, And The Inevitability Of Death” by Mio Angelo. Check it out here… mentallyillinamerica.family.blog/booklets/ And, if you’re so inclined… Please leave a comment about the content in the comments section! Reviews […]Read More My Poem Book Is Complimentary And Is Now Available!
I am tired. I have been fighting schizoaffective disorder symptoms for 20 years. And, I feel like it never ends! I try very hard. I make the effort. And, while I haven’t always been where I am at today, where I am at today, at times, sucks! Thoughts of death and suicide pervade my mind […]Read More Mental Illness And Trauma
Sometimes I go to bed with gratitude.I am grateful when I can see good things.Granted, it’s not every day.But, it is some days.Some days, I can see the peace, feel the happiness, experience the love!It does happen!It will happen again!It might happen tonight!Read More Sometimes, I Go To Bed Grateful (A Poem)
I want to die.I want my life to be over.I want to go now.I am tired.Tired of pretending.Tired of putting on a front.This life is not easy.It is not good.Why must we act like it is?Except to make ourselves feel better?I can honestly tell you that I wear a mask.It protects me from you.You are […]Read More Worsening Depression (A Poem)
I want the pain to stop.All the decisions, the outcomes, everything.Please let it go away.For good.I can try to manage things better after a nap.Or tomorrow.Soon.But, please make it stop!Read More Please Make It Stop (A Poem)
Helpful: Community. Boundaries. Suffering. The push-pull of perfectionism. To always make the effort! Being polite and conversational. Being industrious. Learning to better trust myself amid schizoaffective disorder. Learning to “adjust” over time. Being organized in most ways. Listening to music. Having a variety of hobbies. Giving back via this blog. Having a healthy, primary relationship. […]Read More 31 Things That Have Either Helped Me Or That Have Not
I am troubled by my delusions and hallucinations. As someone who has chronic mental health issues, I absolutely hate getting “stuck” with, in many cases, having to ”connect the dots.” Imagine if you will, that you have affixed your attention, on a person (or persons), and you all of a sudden, begin to think that […]Read More Symptoms That Trouble Me And How I Deal With Them
I’ve written about some of this before, adding more detail with each update. My voices started when I was 24 (or at least that’s when I first started getting treatment for them). After two psychotic breaks, they diagnosed me as having Psychosis NOS. I enrolled in college that same year! I had just enough arrogance […]Read More How My Life Changed With These Schizophrenia Symptoms
Disclaimer: This Site is intended to provide general knowledge, and is not intended to serve as medical advice of any sort. Changes in mental health treatment should never be made without consulting your health care provider. This has been my doctor’s and family’s approach to helping me with schizoaffective disorder. It sometimes takes awhile, but […]Read More Struggling? Newly Diagnosed? A Message For Families Of Those With Psychosis!
No promises, but it’s a sad day; and, will I be able to stick to my guns? I know this and if you’re reading my blog you know it too! That it takes all kinds of people! It also takes all kinds of circumstances and situations, and a plethora of things really! Yes, I experience […]Read More Thinking Of Doing Less Advocating, And Just Seeing What Comes Down The Pike (For Future Posts)
On some level, I am treatment resistant. When I hear the tales of others being symptom free for a long time, in some cases, years… I am reminded that at least in my case, that is not the situation. It’s okay though, right? I mean, we all have something to deal with. It’s just difficult […]Read More More Transparency With My Condition
Gratefully, a new, supplemental antipsychotic medication is on the way! Aside from that, I am stuck in my thoughts. I try and find meaning into everything I think, and I no longer know how to relax very well. Since I take my medications to ultimately avoid hospitalization, I am sometimes stuck with symptoms in a […]Read More I’m Struggling And Need A Kinder Routine, Some Relief
Many of my friends think differently than I do—vastly differently in the majority of cases. And, navigating the rough waters of relationships with these individuals has been tough! It required a lot of trial and error, to include more than a few disgruntled fights. The very mentioning of politics today by anyone other than my […]Read More How I’ve Kept Friends Amidst This Volatile Political Climate
For me, I wasn’t able to maintain many relationships for the first several years of my illness. And then, with time, I slowly began to “try.” It is difficult having schizoaffective disorder without a doubt, and I am in my 24th year since my first psychotic break! What that means is that I’ve had time […]Read More How Do You Maintain Connection When You Have Mental Illness?
I have a difficult time with extended family, due in part to there being so little communication amongst us. And, to me, that begs the question: How did things get to where they are today? Well, I think to some degree, they have always been like this – which is not encouraging. My thoughts are […]Read More Navigating One’s Family Relationships
Recently, I wrote about how I am really struggling with my mental health. Per my psychiatrist mainly, I’ve learned that the meds are not fully doing their job anymore. I’ve also began really dissecting my thoughts, like never before. And with all of this, I’ve come to realize, yes, I am doing better with medication; […]Read More Another Update On My Mental Health
I used to believe I was doing my best by holding my thoughts captive. And, now I believe this philosophical approach is not so good for me. But, how do you change the very thing that made you who you are? In terms of my personality, I’ve always been “deep.” From adolescence to present day, […]Read More Doing One’s Best And Being Symptomatic
Note: What works for me may not work for you (and vice-versa). When I stop and think of reading into things, I must realize that that is, 9 times out of 10, my brain wanting to grab ahold of something unhealthy. I have to accept that this is what’s happening, no matter how much I […]Read More How To Catch A Break Mental Health-Wise (A Poem)
Being aware of your mental health is extremely important! Being aware of how you handle your mental health is also extremely important! I can say that having schizoaffective disorder, and asking a lot of questions to my providers, personally helps me to deal with it! Sometimes I am even “good” at the kinds of questions […]Read More This Is Mental Health Awareness Month