Good morning, fellow bloggers! 🙂 Available (and, complimentary to my readers) as of November 15, 2020… “Here Until I’m Gone: 40 Poems About Trauma, Illness, And The Inevitability Of Death” by Mio Angelo. Check it out here… mentallyillinamerica.family.blog/booklets/ And, if … Continue Reading My Poem Book Is Complimentary And Is Now Available!
I am tired. I have been fighting schizoaffective disorder symptoms for 20 years. And, I feel like it never ends! I try very hard. I make the effort. And, while I haven’t always been where I am at today, where … Continue Reading Mental Illness And Trauma
Sometimes I go to bed with gratitude.I am grateful when I can see good things.Granted, it’s not every day.But, it is some days.Some days, I can see the peace, feel the happiness, experience the love!It does happen!It will happen again!It … Continue Reading Sometimes, I Go To Bed Grateful (A Poem)
I want to die.I want my life to be over.I want to go now.I am tired.Tired of pretending.Tired of putting on a front.This life is not easy.It is not good.Why must we act like it is?Except to make ourselves feel … Continue Reading Worsening Depression (A Poem)
I want the pain to stop.All the decisions, the outcomes, everything.Please let it go away.For good.I can try to manage things better after a nap.Or tomorrow.Soon.But, please make it stop!
Helpful: Community. Boundaries. Suffering. The push-pull of perfectionism. To always make the effort! Being polite and conversational. Being industrious. Learning to better trust myself amid schizoaffective disorder. Learning to “adjust” over time. Being organized in most ways. Listening to music. … Continue Reading 31 Things That Have Either Helped Me Or That Have Not
I am troubled by my delusions and hallucinations. As someone who has chronic mental health issues, I absolutely hate getting “stuck” with, in many cases, having to ”connect the dots.” Imagine if you will, that you have affixed your attention, … Continue Reading Symptoms That Trouble Me And How I Deal With Them
I’ve written about some of this before, adding more detail with each update. My voices started when I was 24 (or at least that’s when I first started getting treatment for them). After two psychotic breaks, they diagnosed me as … Continue Reading How My Life Changed With These Schizophrenia Symptoms
Disclaimer: This Site is intended to provide general knowledge, and is not intended to serve as medical advice of any sort. Changes in mental health treatment should never be made without consulting your health care provider. This has been my … Continue Reading Struggling? Newly Diagnosed? A Message For Families Of Those With Psychosis!
So, the “ring,” for me, is waking up every day and “trying” as best as I can to follow a checklist, which includes self-care items and a few chores. More often than not, I do poorly. I call it failure, … Continue Reading Why I Keep Getting Back In The Ring (So To Speak)
In order to keep interested in your blog (and mine), I am experimenting with posting once a week moving forward. I am grateful for this blog and I am hopeful that I can say what I want to say in … Continue Reading Implementing A New Posting Schedule
I am currently dealing with my schizoaffective disorder by taking 33% less of my antipsychotic. My doctor and I are working together on this medication reduction, and I do feel a hint of more energy – 33% more – which … Continue Reading An Update On My Mental Health
For me, it matters that I try.But, even trying will only get me so far!I easily become tired.I have very little energy to do things.I guess this is my life!This is the prize I’ve won!Wonderful, right?I’m the winner of a … Continue Reading As Good As It Gets (A Poem)
Note: This is a forwarded post! Today, I have a post that’s been long in the making and I’ve been very excited to share. By the title, it sounds like I’m pitching the hottest new … How to Follow The … Continue Reading How to Follow The “Don’t Diet” Diet
I must weather the storm.Today and every day.But, I will get through.And, it will happen again.I sometimes wonder why.I am not one for self-pity.But, I do feel a lot of anxiety right now!I know I am not alone, yet there … Continue Reading I Must Weather The Storm (A Poem)
What are the attitudes that bug you the most? I am particularly bothered by people, who, in general, ask what I do for a living? I get that that’s an icebreaker. Something else that bothers me is people in general. … Continue Reading Pervasive Attitudes About People With Mental Illness
I don’t want to justify… nope.And, I don’t want to bullshit.Myself or you!I want to be straight with us both!Always.That’s why I get intimate.Transparent even.Sometimes breaking boundaries.Sometimes holding fast to them.l continue to work on things!You continue to work on … Continue Reading I Don’t Want To Justify, This Is Not My Bullshit (A Poem)
The difference is I’ve hardened up a bit! By having poor boundaries (not knowing better early on), I was highly susceptible to being taken advantage of! And, I was… several times… Today, though… after many run-ins with toxic people and … Continue Reading I Started Out An Empath And Ended Up Empathic
NOTE: When I say “forced,” I mean that I elected this path of personal development, which has much to do with how I process the world around me. — Personal development has been something I’ve been doing for 25 years, … Continue Reading How Personal Development Has Been “Forced” On Me
This is where I am at.I want to have a better quality of life, while alive.How do I do that?“Do the work and still die,” is the best I have come up with.And, this is quite my reality. It’s quite … Continue Reading A Few Good Hours (A Poem)
I don’t know about you, but I am not always reliable with my accounts of things. I do my best, to the point, that I think I know what I am saying… but, clearly all of us are wrong from … Continue Reading Reliability And Symptom Reporting
2020 has sucked. There are no two ways about it. This year, I watched a lot of my friendships dissipate over politics. And, in a lot of ways, that is just unacceptable. But, you know what… life goes on… does … Continue Reading Reflecting A Bit On 2020: On Friendships, On Psychosis
For anyone need to take medications for a chronic condition like mental illness, dealing with side effects may end up being part of the reality of … Living with Psych Med Side Effects
Because I am generally tired from the start of my day until it ends, I have quite a time doing basic chores. The recurring task of putting away the dishes (for instance) usually takes 5 minutes, and that’s hard for … Continue Reading Just How Hard It Is To Do My Chores
I like to think about the items I can do to make my road easier. And, I am still confused about the processes of many things. For instance, I now know that a checklist helps me. …When I have the … Continue Reading Blogging Helps Me, Even When I Can’t Help Myself
