There is nothing more disconcerting for me than my delusions and hallucinations. They occur every day. When my wife is available, I will oftentimes get a “reality check,” which definitely helps. I don’t share any of the things I share … Continue Reading The Reality Of My Delusions And Hallucinations
Just prior to my receiving my schizoaffective disorder diagnosis, I had attempted suicide a handful of times on rides to the mental hospital. Gratefully, no one was ever harmed, and my suicidal attempts were curtailed. I have always had an … Continue Reading A Little About My Journey With Chronic Mental Illness
You know what makes me sad? It is those individuals whose voice is mangled or doesn’t exist at all! This was me for way too many years. I was in survival mode for much too long. “The only way out … Continue Reading Work Hard Every Day And Don’t Be Discouraged
I met with a dietician awhile ago, and am now meeting with her again. I can’t say I was giving it my all back then, because I likely wasn’t. One of the differences between now and then, is that now … Continue Reading Nutritional Counseling Is Helping
Over the past decade or so, I have started and taken down over a dozen blogs. It is my hope that this one will be the one to stay! I may never be blogger of the year, but I’ll settle … Continue Reading What To Stay With And What To Quit
I refuse to give up, although I feel like doing so some-of-the-time. I found a Liberal Higher Power (the kind of religion doesn’t matter). I kept on putting myself out there until I found my partner. I wasn’t afraid to … Continue Reading 10 Ways I Battle Chronic Mental Illness
I am on a heavy regimen of psych meds. I have to be. I am morbidly obese. I am now logging my calories and am losing weight slowly, so I feel as though my day will get here. What is … Continue Reading Heavy Doses Of Psych Meds (And Their Affects)
So, we all have a story, and some of our stories began well before we started sharing them publicly. I know that when my story began, it was riddled with symptoms of schizophrenia as far back as 20 years ago. … Continue Reading You All Are Entering My Story 20 Years After The Fact
The title of this post is a lyric by Pearl Jam. The song is “Love Boat Captain,” and it’s off of one of my favorite albums of theirs. But, isn’t it so true? That it’s an art to live with … Continue Reading It’s An Art To Live With Pain
I feel as though, these days I am doing pretty well. The last time I spoke with my psychiatrist, he told me that I am responding well to my medication. And, that is a good thing! The meds can only … Continue Reading Varying Degrees Of Stability
So, I’ve been having a difficult time lately. I’ve posted about it here, and I’ve even taken to Facebook some (not to reach out, but to share mental health related posts). And, you know what? I am starting to really … Continue Reading Reminder To Self: Stay Off Of Facebook During Difficult Times
I know it’s my illness, but I cannot break free of my fears surrounding this blog. I don’t know if I’m helping or making things worse. I imagine that I’m so used to my delusions and hallucinations, that they have … Continue Reading How I Am Presently Feeling
How nice it is to occasionally participate in activities that allow you to feel quasi-normal? It is nice. It is a blessing. And, that’s where the blessing side of things, begin and end. The curse in me being a high … Continue Reading Being High-Functioning Is Both A Blessing And A Curse
• You deserve more than to just exist.• Your old responses to stress can no longer be.• You can’t save everyone.• Be a good example to others.• Be thankful for all that you have and all that you are.• Try, … Continue Reading Some Things I Recently Figured Out
This describes me to a “T.” I have a number of hobbies and interests. Sadly, though, much of the time, I don’t have the energy for anything other than surfing the Internet and eating. What a life I (we) all … Continue Reading Jack Of All Trades – Master Of None
A lot of times I cannot sleep at night, so I get up. Once awake, my mind goes to places I don’t want it to. Places I thought I had dealt with long ago. I know this is relatable, because … Continue Reading I Feel Very Alone Right Now
