Imagine, if you will, scores of people out there, battling severe mental illness, minimizing cognitive dissonance, and finding their way? Can it be done? How can it be done? For me, I have become so reliant on specific doses of … Continue Reading Cognitive Dissonance And The Push-Pull Of Severe Mental Illness
I don’t know where to begin, or how to make this all-encompassing, but here’s what I feel… There is no precise way to overcome a lot of what I experience. Most of what I go through! It will always be … Continue Reading Overcoming Barriers To Living One’s Life When Highly Medicated And Sleeping 12-14 Hours A Day
I read into things a lot! And, I am making another appointment with my doctor tomorrow. We met last month, but I need to see him again. I think I need to change my meds. I thought they were working … Continue Reading I Am Angry With Myself
Is medication something that you personally take and can vouch for? Is medication the be all, end all solution for people who deal with mental illness? I personally have struggled immensely to get to where I can take the meds … Continue Reading How Well Does Taking Medication Work For Those Dealing With Mental Illness?
I cannot figure out why I am plagued with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder. I just can’t… except for that fever that I got when I was around the age of two. Or, maybe a few other possibilities! It’s that same fever that … Continue Reading Why Schizophrenia? Why Me? Why Not?
I seemed like the “normal” returning college student. I was a bit on the nerdy side, I wanted to get my education, and I wanted to have fun! Since I had Psychosis NOS, I tended to make some bad decisions … Continue Reading How The Search For Truth Once Hurt Me, But No Longer Causes Me Emotional Pain
An acquaintance of mine and I had a discussion yesterday regarding my use of the words, “life sucks.” It’s not a phrase I personally share with others a whole lot, so I was interested in learning her reaction to it, … Continue Reading Misunderstanding Severe Mental Illness Through Toxic Positivity And Comparative Thinking
In this post, I’d like to talk a little bit about my experience with schizoaffective disorder, as someone who is diagnosed and living with it. If you have any amendments to suggest to this write-up, please make them in the … Continue Reading What Schizoaffective Disorder Is And What It Isn’t (A Collaborative Overview)
NOTE: I sometimes deal with the following angst, as a result of my psychosis. And, having high anxiety doesn’t help matters. I have to tell you… I am stressed about the election. And, I don’t trust my government as things … Continue Reading I Am Fearful
I am sad at the moment. I feel like I am somewhat lost amid my beliefs. Part of the problem is that I am looking for a label for them. And, I haven’t quite found the right one. Oh well, … Continue Reading I Am Reminded That There Is Good In People
I recently reconnected with someone from my past, who knew a different version of myself. Not that my being different in the past matters really, but our knowing each other, took place just before (and during) my becoming full-blown ill. … Continue Reading Keeping Good Boundaries: When People Perceive My Being Kind For My Being Well
I don’t care what religion (or non-religion) it is you practice, but in America… Christianity (for example)… is tied eerily closely to the right! For that reason, it has become increasingly difficult for me to understand why! Just, why! Why … Continue Reading Finding Meaning In The World Today
As I was re-reading the post (several times), I caught onto what my reader’s were saying… I didn’t realize that I was coming off as so “discouraging…” and, I want to apologize! Especially as I’ve personally had a notable improvement … Continue Reading I Took A Long, Hard Look At Yesterday’s Post (And, The Responses I Got)
NOTE: Everyone is different and I encourage you to get the help you need to fight your diagnoses. I have gotten involved with a variety of negative behaviors over the years. This is true. Upon closer examination of many of … Continue Reading An Update On My Perceived Addictions
I am tired. I have been fighting schizoaffective disorder symptoms for 20 years. And, I feel like it never ends! I try very hard. I make the effort. And, while I haven’t always been where I am at today, where … Continue Reading Mental Illness And Trauma
NOTE: Bullying exists in a lot of places, and “in families” is just one example of it. This is my family and a few of my (former) old friends. And, I myself, believe that there is a fine line between … Continue Reading A Family Who Lacks Awareness, Teases/Bullies One Another