Ruminating On My Shitty Family

Before I get started, I want you all to know, that I am practicing kindness towards my shitty family. That said, the devastation that poverty brings is significant! As I look back at growing up with my cousins and all of their parents (on one side of the family), I am reminded of the horrors […]

Feeling Well And/Or Being On The “Recovery” Path

Please tell me the difference between feeling well and being on the “recovery” path. Because I don’t know. Because I am not well. Therefore, I do not understand “recovery!” I am ambitious. Always have been, which comes out in my writing. And (hopefully), always will be! There were times, though, when I could barely get […]

Trying Not To Be Mad At The Rest Of The World Right Now

There is a feeling that I am experiencing, and I must admit, it’s been awhile since I’ve felt it. It is my being extremely upset at the world at large, the people (if you will) that are not depressed, not psychotic, not mentally ill… It’s the type of feeling that separates me from the masses, […]

To Those Who Grapple With Taking Meds

There were those times when I thought that my meds were changing my very essence, but they weren’t. There were those moments when I felt like there was only a small part of me that was recognizable, but that wasn’t true. There were so many instances when I felt (and feel) like dirt, but I […]

Getting Enough Sleep Is Fast Becoming A Primary Goal

I’ve discovered that I need 8-9 hours of sleep. Without it, I have a very tough time. It is so helpful to me when I am well rested. One thing I’ve noticed though, it doesn’t matter how much rest I get, I will still need to take naps most days. How much sleep do you […]

Addressing This Subject Matter One More Time

This post is not directed at anyone in particular. It’s just how I am feeling about what I have been trying to convey, over the past 101 posts on this blog. I did not come here to play favorites with the severity of mental health diagnoses. If you check, I actually spent a lot of […]

I Think A Lot About My Relationships, And About Death And Dying

Talk about thinking too much, about things that should occur naturally, and without drama. I am so frustrated with my thought process as it pertains to my relationships and death. I think about who likes me, who really cares. I think about how much I like someone, if I want them in my life. And, […]

I Want To Live, But Due To My Illness, I Cannot

This is likely something that many of us are dealing with. At least I am dealing with it, and I would like to hear from others, as to how they might relate. I feel like I’ve lost so many years due to my mental illness, and I am still losing years. For those in recovery, […]

I Know I Need To Get Moving More But I Can’t

I am not talking about exercise, although that’s a nice thought. I am talking about getting out of the house in general. I left this weekend, which is great. Maybe all I am able to do right now is blog. It sure seems that way! I am going through something. I recently met with my […]

Playing Nice And Following The Status Quo

The other day, I had two of my comments censored (from two different bloggers). My comments weren’t bad. They were honest. And, they never saw the light of day. For whatever reason. Like it or not, censorship is not what I am about. I am here to tell it like it is. Each and every […]