Are we? Or is that term outdated? Does it need updating? I am hesitant to post a title like this, because I don’t believe I am a victim! But, in my mind, many of us here in the blogosphere, are … Continue Reading We Are The Marginalized
They are ever present right now. These thoughts. They are here no matter what. It seems. And, no matter what I try, they remain. I get busy and they are there as the busyness subsides. I stay involved, and they … Continue Reading Thoughts Of Death And Suicide
And, be prepared for both the good and bad consequences of your decisions! Working through my fears has enabled me to finally have a blog that I can stick with! I haven’t written much about facing one’s fears, but it … Continue Reading Sometimes, You Just Have To Say, “Phuck It!”
While I am becoming more of a realist, my hope, when I go through something difficult (not necessarily illness-based), is that I’ve reached the end of my suffering. This is why I have such a hard time with hope! If … Continue Reading Misguided Optimism?
NOTE: I am fast becoming a realist. And, at times, I don’t feel like I properly describe my struggles. In fact, I am not sure that I can, or that I even should (sometimes)… but, here they are (in sum)! … Continue Reading A Realist And His Illness
For the past few weeks, I have been living with suicidal thoughts. And, while I don’t intend on acting on this intrusive thinking, it is quite difficult to live this way. Every day, there has been a significant amount of … Continue Reading Suicide Awareness And Education
I remember one of the first times I heard this statement. And, it rubbed me the wrong way! Granted, I was with some people that I ended up not caring for. But, the idea that anytime this statement is made, … Continue Reading The Struggle Is Real…
No, this is not “Attitude” by Charles Swindoll (for those of you who know the reference). Rather, the following is a rant of sorts. Severe Mental Illness sucks. It just freaking sucks! I cannot imagine my life without the gargantic … Continue Reading The Longer I Live, The More I Realize…
I have schizoaffective disorder, and I am to a degree, high-functioning (whatever that means). And, I can’t tell you how alone I feel with how I get along in the world today. For years, family and friends have been all … Continue Reading When You’re High Functioning, Your Problems Might Get Overlooked
I want to be at peace with having been a loner growing up. I want to be at peace with having been bullied growing up. I want to be at peace with being a part of the 1% of people … Continue Reading 11 Things I Want To Be At Peace With
I am troubled by my delusions and hallucinations. As someone who has chronic mental health issues, I absolutely hate getting “stuck” with, in many cases, having to ”connect the dots.” Imagine if you will, that you have affixed your attention, … Continue Reading Symptoms That Trouble Me And How I Deal With Them
“Don’t ever underestimate the impact that you may have on someone else’s life.” — Anonymous I couldn’t do what I am doing, with the writing, the blog, and the social media… if I wasn’t at least “somewhat” functional. Also, how … Continue Reading Using My Words To Help People
Maybe I am asking the wrong group of people, as many of my readers are struggling with mental health conditions themselves. But, I do wonder. I have wondered. And, I will continue to wonder. I will never know what being … Continue Reading What Do People Without Psychosis Think About?
NOTE: This was written awhile ago, but still applies to many of us. It is desire, along with having decent stability, that helps with my having good insight. And, I have just enough decent stability to make me have good … Continue Reading Inside Suffering: A Look At Stability, Insight, And Statistics
According to Ashley of Mental Health @ Home, it is important to “just keep going.” And, that, to me, is helpful! 🙂 I remember many years ago, being told that I had a lot of potential. This was before I … Continue Reading Just Keep Going…
First off, I am interested in reducing a certain amount of “comfortability,” so that I may grow more. I.e. Expand my limitations a bit. More to come on this in another post! 🙂 Secondly, I guess what I am really … Continue Reading Trying Not To Let My Delusions Overwhelm Me