It Is That I Am Aware (A Poem)

I am aware of all that can go wrong.
While being aware of that which could go right.
I am an optimist.
But, I lean on the pessimistic side of life.
Right now that is.
Things can get better.
It will require teamwork.
But, do people know how to work together?
This is my concern.
Can we do it as one?
We could join hands and sing “Kumbaya.”
But, that’s precisely what we don’t want to do.
Right now that is.
Things can get better.

Progress Is A Battle

When I am alone… that’s a battle.

When I am with others… that’s a battle.

When I am on the phone, in public, or hanging out with my wife… That’s a battle.

Just making you aware of my battle is a battle.

And, becoming more self-aware… that is a battle.

This is a battle I was forced to take on. There was no choice in the matter.

Having undergone therapy and having gotten involved with personal development, I thought it would somehow end.

It hasn’t. And, it won’t.

I just want to write about my experiences with mental illness to possibly help others.

BS’ing One Another And Ourselves

Okay. We all BS one another, but do we BS ourselves?

Yes, we absolutely do.

At this time, I am BS’ing myself on something I am sure.

But, what?

I don’t know off the top of my head.

What it’s not, though, is the severity of my schizoaffective disorder.

Sorry, if you were looking for that to be the object of my BS affection, but that’s not it!

Chronic mental illness just plain stinks.

It really does.

There’s no way around it but through, yet it still won’t go away.

You can focus on what’s working, what’s going right… And, not accentuate all the bad shit… but, it is still an unbelievably difficult phenomenon to be dealing with.

For all those with mental illness, I applaud you, and encourage your being in treatment.

And, to sound a little like every other mental health advocate out there…

Together, we can spread awareness, help one another, and squash stigma!