In this three part series, I’ve been sharing instances of “when my mind plays tricks on me.”
Now, I’d like to share with you (as I’ve done before on this blog), just how difficult it is to keep the blog up and running.
My diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder (depressive type), and it is incredibly challenging to not obsess over the kinds of things, that other bloggers, don’t think about (and probably take for granted).
I’m not complaining, but when I say that I want to let America and the rest of the world know how bad the suffering associated with my diagnosis (and other severe mental illnesses) is, I’m sharing with you just the “facts.”
On the one hand, I feel good having started this blog. And, on the other, I have people who support it (and want to hear from me).
So, you might be thinking—what’s the problem?
And, the answer is that I am ill, and I am doing my best to manage my illness.
All of these things are prime examples of the paranoia and delusions I experience. Not to mention the auditory hallucinations that reiterate just how bad of an idea it is to have this blog (or any of the dozen or so blogs, I’ve ultimately gotten rid of).
NOTE: I am not planning on getting rid of this blog anytime soon.