NOTE: When I say “forced,” I mean that I elected this path of personal development, which has much to do with how I process the world around me.
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Personal development has been something I’ve been doing for 25 years, with varying degrees of success!
What I am beginning to figure out is that much of my progress is not only “slow,” but the process (for me) serves as more “motivational” than anything else.
Since I’ve learned that motivation doesn’t last… a lot of what I am hearing from listening to personal development audios, is not really helping!
Again, I get the benefit of being motivated… for a little while… maybe a day at most…
And, these are my observations!
Now, how has personal development been “forced” on me?
From my earliest days of getting doused with motivation (at 20/21), things were not “right” with me!
I didn’t know it at the time… but, for much of my life up until and after this period of personal development dousing, I was highly anxious!
My entire life, in fact (and in retrospect), I had a lot of anxiety… A lot!
I can remember being questioned about my life “privately” in elementary school, by social workers.
They asked me questions about my home life, and accepted the answers I gave them. At face value even!
If I were a school social worker, and I was questioning kids about their home life… I’d probably have done my homework prior to speaking to them!
Anyhow, I know about budget constraints and about kids falling through the cracks… plus, this was in the early 80’s!
In other words, I was likely doomed from the get-go…
So, personal development was my earliest “go-to” for anything I needed to understand (and, “explain” this mad life to me)!
What are some important ways in which you’ve grown, through having mental illness?
