So, the “ring,” for me, is waking up every day and “trying” as best as I can to follow a checklist, which includes self-care items and a few chores. More often than not, I do poorly. I call it failure, … Continue Reading Why I Keep Getting Back In The Ring (So To Speak)
I am currently dealing with my schizoaffective disorder by taking 33% less of my antipsychotic. My doctor and I are working together on this medication reduction, and I do feel a hint of more energy – 33% more – which … Continue Reading An Update On My Mental Health
2020 has sucked. There are no two ways about it. This year, I watched a lot of my friendships dissipate over politics. And, in a lot of ways, that is just unacceptable. But, you know what… life goes on… does … Continue Reading Reflecting A Bit On 2020: On Friendships, On Psychosis
I would like to feel vibrant again! I would like to know that I am living my life! I don’t get anything resembling a feeling that I am vibrant, though, nor that I am living my life! I really don’t … Continue Reading I Still Want To Live
I read into things a lot! And, I am making another appointment with my doctor tomorrow. We met last month, but I need to see him again. I think I need to change my meds. I thought they were working … Continue Reading I Am Angry With Myself
Is medication something that you personally take and can vouch for? Is medication the be all, end all solution for people who deal with mental illness? I personally have struggled immensely to get to where I can take the meds … Continue Reading How Well Does Taking Medication Work For Those Dealing With Mental Illness?
So, I have mentioned in various posts, that I am struggling with my medication regimen. In short, I can stay awake the longest on the medication I am on. I am on way too much of it though… I guess … Continue Reading The Medication Fiasco – Solved!
I know where it started. I know how it all began. But, what I didn’t know is why I was still doing it! That’s what led me to read more about compulsive gambling, and eventually, to share the basics of … Continue Reading The Last Casino: An Essay On Not Gambling To Prevent Relapse (Part Of A Series Of Essays)
It happens and I hate it. There seemed to be an element of doubt where some of my former friendships were concerned. And, just to be transparent… I have written off my extended family. An extreme measure for some, but … Continue Reading When You Think Someone Is Plotting Against You
I think part of my problem may lie in the comfort that the meds provide. A comfort that I need, but that also has a double edged sword. A lot of times anyway. Take my mood stabilizer (please take my … Continue Reading The Comfort That Meds Provide
I have a not-so-common mental illness (schizophrenia), and the people I’ve known my entire life are resentful of me, because … Continue Reading Something That Must Be Said
There were those times when I thought that my meds were changing my very essence, but they weren’t. There were those moments when I felt like there was only a small part of me that was recognizable, but that wasn’t … Continue Reading To Those Who Grapple With Taking Meds
Many times throughout my journey, I’ve had medication issues. I have not always responded well to treatment with certain meds. And, when my psychiatrist and I found the right meds for me, I needed to up their strength. Looking back, … Continue Reading I Always Take My Meds As Prescribed
That’s the way my life seemed like it was going after I originally was diagnosed with Psychosis NOS. There had been a time lapse between that first diagnosis and my finishing up school for my Bachelor’s Degree. During the time … Continue Reading In A Jail, In An Institution Or On The Streets
Psych meds are a funny thing. What works for one person may not work for the next. There’s a lot of trial and error, and for those without a good insurance plan, their plight is a little more challenging. As … Continue Reading It Seems To All Boil Down To The Meds I’m Taking
My schedule is as consistent as it’s probably going to be. I try and sleep overnight, even though I have a difficult time staying asleep. By sleeping at night, I have some semblance of a life. I definitely require 8-9 … Continue Reading Sleep And Mental Illness