Meticulously Living An Honest Life

This is not about mental illness, or maybe it is.

But no, it’s not. Trauma maybe.

And, while I’m at it, living honestly, doesn’t make your mental illness go away!

I am not sure what prizes sharing any of this wins me. And, I am also not sure as to whether I’d want them.

So, we’ll go with no prizes.

The more open-minded, more aware, more “awake” one is, you can’t help but notice that we are fighting a war against the anti-intellectuals of our time. And, it’s probably not going to end well!

Here in the United States, the conservatives are mad at everything, and the liberals are too!

However, the liberals aim to focus their anger in constructive ways.

The liberals use science and reasoning (intellectualism) to make their way through life, which conservatives could give a rat’s ass about those things. They’ve got “god” and conspiracies, and they’re pissed!

Because after all, the conservatives are the chosen one’s doing “god’s” work!

The whole thing sucks! And I just wish more people had insight, and knew the consequences of their actions!

We make everything so political/about religion, and politics suck, and so do politicians!

For me, it’s that you have to (wisely) pick the lesser of two evils.

And, if you look at things from a purely decency/human rights perspective in 2021, that should be easy.

Finding Meaning In The World Today

I don’t care what religion (or non-religion) it is you practice, but in America… Christianity (for example)… is tied eerily closely to the right!

For that reason, it has become increasingly difficult for me to understand why! Just, why!

Why do I believe?

Why are displays of “Christianity” becoming so ridiculous beyond measure?

It ultimately makes me question the process of finding meaning (through religion) in the world today!

I am educated on many religions, and I understand the hold that the right has on Christianity.

I also understand how mixing politics with religion is not only dirty, but it’s the only way the Republicans can exist today!

At least it was before the current president…

Everything has now become a free for all!

The whole thing cheapens what religion stands for, when it’s so closely combined with politics.

All I am left with is that mainstream Christianity’s following is all the same.

Fine for you maybe… but, far from fine for me!

For me personally… the only way I can operate is to believe in something that’s not really supported!

And, what I mean by this is… I believe in Jesus, and what Jesus stood for!

But, my interpretation of the Bible may not be the same as yours!

Whether any god is real or true or has ever existed, means less to me than the movements that attempt (and, do an effective job) at turning me away from my belief in the Christian god.

It’s all just so discouraging for those who want to follow an institution of value.

Do you have any thoughts on what’s happening in the U.S. with regards to Christianity (or any religion for that matter)? And, how are politics and religion intertwined where you live?

Today I Thought That Bernie Sanders Dropped Out Because Of My Blog

I hate this shit. Truly.

You can’t make this stuff up!

I thought (and still wonder) if Bernie dropping out has anything to do with my blog.

Yes, I know that Sanders dropping out of the presidential race has nothing to do with my blog. 

But, what’s interesting is the belief that lingers, that hangs around, looking for some type of validation.

I hate schizophrenia. I absolutely, unequivocally hate this disease.

And, that brings me to a question I have.

What makes one person with mental illness, more functional than someone else who also has a mental illness?

The diagnoses can be different, and so can the functioning.

I’m just looking for a little clarification as to why people’s suffering is so “all over the place.”

Thanks and have a great day/night!

I Think I Need To Give Up Politics

I need to quit getting involved in political discussions. On Facebook… Twitter… Everywhere! Democrat vs. Republican. Whatever, wherever. Done!

Although I am getting better at arguing my point, I feel worthless and empty right afterwords.

This is to include the politics of mental health. And, of course, the concept of recovery.

I dislike the notion of recovery. It lasts for as long as you’re well, and doesn’t really properly account for the times when you are acutely ill.

I know, and if anyone else has any understanding on the subject, what I go through every day.

As someone with chronic schizoaffective disorder, I am ill. I am not well. I strive to be well, but I am not that.

I am also not able to withstand a lot of stress. Do a lot of things around the house. Nor can I engage in good self-care practices.

Resistance is futile. In terms of my passion for politics. All politics.

I just need to not care like I do.

Yes, I want Bernie in, to help us be the final major country to get universal health care. But, I am not going to be the one to head up that fight.

Again, I am going to try to be done.