In order to keep interested in your blog (and mine), I am experimenting with posting once a week moving forward.
I am grateful for this blog and I am hopeful that I can say what I want to say in that interval, but if I can’t, I will make occasional posts outside the once a week plan.
I hope everyone is doing well!
I think part of my problem may lie in the comfort that the meds provide. A comfort that I need, but that also has a double edged sword. A lot of times anyway.
Take my mood stabilizer (please take my mood stabilizer ;). One of its functions is to keep you going steady, keep things even if you will (I am not a clinician, so…)
But, this mood stabilizer also keeps me from going through the gamut of emotions, that people without meds, sometimes experience.
On one hand, I want that! I want to be able to “feel!”
Choosing to be healthy is a compromise. And, I do the best I can by taking all of my meds, all of the time.
What resolve have you employed, where your meds (and their effects) are concerned?
There were those times when I thought that my meds were changing my very essence, but they weren’t.
There were those moments when I felt like there was only a small part of me that was recognizable, but that wasn’t true.
There were so many instances when I felt (and feel) like dirt, but I know that I will “get through,” and for all intents and purposes, I am going to feel better.
You see, meds are necessary in our lives, and no matter how much we dislike taking them, they help us… they really do.
Indeed, there must be some trust between you, your provider, and your medication regimen.
And, take it from someone who has been in the trenches, that your mental health will improve with time.
Psych meds are a funny thing. What works for one person may not work for the next.
There’s a lot of trial and error, and for those without a good insurance plan, their plight is a little more challenging.
As for me, I have been on the regimen I’m on for the better part of 10 years. And, all I can say is, “it just works.”
It works mainly in the sense that I stay out of the hospital, which is important to me.
To elaborate, the medication does not clear up my symptoms, it simply lessens the hold those symptoms have on me.
Another way of saying it is, “I have fewer problems with the particular regimen I am on.”
I guess I’ve just arrived at a place, where I expect mental health symptoms, but I also expect a degree of resilience on my part, in fighting them.
How do you view medications? In particular, the ones you take?