The shows are great, but I am reminded (especially with the reality ones), at just how far and away I am from living! I’ve written about the fact that I want to live, before. It is difficult not living, and … Continue Reading I’ve Been Getting Into A Few TV Shows Lately
Schizoaffective disorder is my official diagnosis. A lot of times, my depression looks different, because I’ve become dependable and I don’t feel bad about myself (i.e. I don’t have poor self-esteem)! Not that everyone who’s depressed, has poor self-esteem btw… … Continue Reading When Your Depression Looks Different Than What It Used To
NOTE: I sometimes deal with the following angst, as a result of my psychosis. And, having high anxiety doesn’t help matters. I have to tell you… I am stressed about the election. And, I don’t trust my government as things … Continue Reading I Am Fearful
This post is in response to Ashley of Mental Health At Home’s review of “My Beautiful Psychosis,” earlier this morning. After reading her review, I wanted to share some of my post psychotic episode/hospitalization experiences. But, with an emphasis on … Continue Reading Medication And Psychosis Prevention
I have a not-so-common mental illness (schizophrenia), and the people I’ve known my entire life are resentful of me, because … Continue Reading Something That Must Be Said
Will we see increased suicide rates during this recession? There’s no doubt about it, we’re in a global economic recession. And historically, … Increased suicide rates during a recession
I have schizoaffective disorder, and I am to a degree, high-functioning (whatever that means). And, I can’t tell you how alone I feel with how I get along in the world today. For years, family and friends have been all … Continue Reading When You’re High Functioning, Your Problems Might Get Overlooked
So, I really am not doing “good.” I go in phases of being “so-so” to really having a lot of “mental anguish.” And, I want to be as transparent as I can with this. Especially as I recently met with … Continue Reading Update On My Blogging
I’ve written about some of this before, adding more detail with each update. My voices started when I was 24 (or at least that’s when I first started getting treatment for them). After two psychotic breaks, they diagnosed me as … Continue Reading How My Life Changed With These Schizophrenia Symptoms
In this three part series, I’ve been sharing instances of “when my mind plays tricks on me.” Now, I’d like to share with you (as I’ve done before on this blog), just how difficult it is to keep the blog … Continue Reading When Your Mind Plays Tricks On You: An Exercise In Awareness (Part 3/3)
In the last post, I shared some of the things, that I’ve been through in my life. Delusions and hallucinations. And, even though I’ve worked through these beliefs of mine, I am oftentimes reminded of the ever so slight hold … Continue Reading When Your Mind Plays Tricks On You: An Exercise In Awareness (Part 2/3)
I had my first psychotic break in the late 1990’s. Shortly after 2000, I regularly began taking my medications. It has been (and continues to be) a long and arduous journey—not only to get here, but to carve out where … Continue Reading When Your Mind Plays Tricks On You: An Exercise In Awareness (Part 1/3)
I can’t always do this, but I have noticed (as many anxiety sufferers probably have) that many of the things I fear in life, are unfounded. To elaborate, it is more than fear that I am talking about—it’s my delusions. … Continue Reading I Am Learning To Double And Triple Check Many Beliefs
NOTE: This post is about my psychosis experience, but I also wanted to say that chronic illnesses “in general” cause A LOT of problems for the individuals struggling with them. Intentionality often drives my daily practice! In addition to having … Continue Reading I Am The Exception Rather Than The Rule: Intentionality And My Experience With Psychosis
Disclaimer: This Site is intended to provide general knowledge, and is not intended to serve as medical advice of any sort. Changes in mental health treatment should never be made without consulting your health care provider. This has been my … Continue Reading Struggling? Newly Diagnosed? A Message For Families Of Those With Psychosis!
NOTE: This essay was written awhile ago. I am more stable at this time. I have chronic schizoaffective disorder (depressive type), and I believe in this very moment, that the government is out to get me. I truly do! Some … Continue Reading Why You’ll Think Of Me As Being Symptomatic Right Now (Part Of A Series Of Essays)