I hate this shit. Truly. You can’t make this stuff up! I thought (and still wonder) if Bernie dropping out has anything to do with my blog. Yes, I know that Sanders dropping out of the presidential race has nothing … Continue Reading Today I Thought That Bernie Sanders Dropped Out Because Of My Blog
I just want to get this down. And, for the record, I have no alcohol or street drugs in my system (nor do I ever). That said, I am sure with this post title, I come across as being “paranoid.” … Continue Reading I Am Afraid Of The Government!
Here is an article published earlier today, discussing the age old argument of nature vs. nurture in schizophrenia: https://www.npr.org/2020/04/05/826695581/in-hidden-valley-road-a-familys-journey-helps-shift-the-science-of-mental-illnes
I can discuss my symptoms until I am blue in the face. And, don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind talking about them. It’s what I want to do! The challenge comes though, when people walk away without a greater … Continue Reading People Don’t Understand Schizophrenia And Probably Never Will
Please tell me the difference between feeling well and being on the “recovery” path. Because I don’t know. Because I am not well. Therefore, I do not understand “recovery!” I am ambitious. Always have been, which comes out in my … Continue Reading Feeling Well And/Or Being On The “Recovery” Path
I recall feeling extremely different before the crux of my psychotic breaks. I was a handsome young man, in school, on a mission. I was working my way through university, and self-medicating (with alcohol) two to three times a week… … Continue Reading The Trade-Off Is Real: The Perils Of Pre-Illness To Full-Blown Illness
I started out journaling and did this for quite awhile, until I entertained the idea of blogging. I’ve had close … Continue Reading How Long Did It Take To Write About Some Of Your Experiences? (Week Three)
It doesn’t matter when I lay down, or whether it’s at night or if it’s for a nap. I wake up afraid. I, of course, am hopeful, that this is just a phase I am going through. When I am … Continue Reading I Usually Wake Up In Fear
This post is not directed at anyone in particular. It’s just how I am feeling about what I have been trying to convey, over the past 101 posts on this blog. I did not come here to play favorites with … Continue Reading Addressing This Subject Matter One More Time
The answer is yes. But, I have not always been “as aware.” My awareness has grown out of my intention to have it do so. You see, I want to learn and I want to feel better. I’ve had to … Continue Reading Have I Always Been High-Functioning?
This is likely something that many of us are dealing with. At least I am dealing with it, and I would like to hear from others, as to how they might relate. I feel like I’ve lost so many years … Continue Reading I Want To Live, But Due To My Illness, I Cannot
In no particular order, the first key to my success with mental health, was getting over my old self that thought I was the “baddest kid on the block,” and forging some close bonds. After I realized I was no … Continue Reading The Three Keys To My Success With Mental Health
I am not talking about exercise, although that’s a nice thought. I am talking about getting out of the house in general. I left this weekend, which is great. Maybe all I am able to do right now is blog. … Continue Reading I Know I Need To Get Moving More But I Can’t
The other day, I had two of my comments censored (from two different bloggers). My comments weren’t bad. They were honest. And, they never saw the light of day. For whatever reason. Like it or not, censorship is not what … Continue Reading Playing Nice And Following The Status Quo
It’s not a competition between the anxiety sufferer and the depressed individual or even the person(s) with bipolar or schizophrenia. Yet, at times, I am specifically wanting to bring awareness to people like me, whereby I am a high-functioning person … Continue Reading In Terms Of Having A Career, Persons With Schizophrenia Fare Badly
The title says it all. But, the paranoia I experience does more than just piss me off, it all-out frightens me. The fear can be like a surge of lightning, invading my thoughts. Only a surge of lightning doesn’t last … Continue Reading My Paranoia Is Always There, In The Shadows, Waiting For A Chance To Piss Me Off