While I don’t really want to die, I think a lot about death.
And, because of the problems with current treatments for my schizoaffective disorder, I will likely die of an obesity-related illness.
I know. To some, this will sound defeatist.
But, no matter what I do, I can’t sleep consistently and I am not able to eat less with consistency either.
Both my weight and lack of a consistent sleep routine have caused me a great deal of pain, for at least 20-something years.
And, this isn’t about diet! It’s about how the medications I take affect my weight, sleep routine, and activity level. And, how I’d like to have a better plan of action moving forward.
I try so hard! And, currently, I have about three days a month, where I sleep eight to nine hours straight and feel rested.
Plus, I’ll still need one to three naps, even when I get that amount of sleep.
I do go to bed at the same time every night, but I oftentimes have difficulty staying asleep the whole night.
I guess I’m just writing all of this, because I am worn down and could use some advice.
Maybe this community has some suggestions? I’m open to hearing what you have to say.
Implementing long-lasting change will probably be up for grabs.
But, maybe not.
And, therapy is off the table.