Confusion Is A Bigger Problem Than I Want To Admit

I am confused a lot.

I press on, because that’s what I need to do for me, but I am oftentimes, left trying to make sense of just about everything!

Admittedly, I am not “connecting the dots” like I used to. That was hell!

It’s still there, but it’s not as prevalent as it once was…

What’s more troubling now is the stress I am under every day!

To the onlooker, they wouldn’t understand, but to me, I know what my difficulties are and they rarely letup…

I try and sleep overnight (it is hard), so that I can at least make myself available to My Daily Checklist.

It gets tweaked fairly frequently, all in an effort to get a few extra boxes checked off daily!

In reality, I have way more boxes not being checked, but I am trying.

That’s all I can do. Really and truly. 🙂

Back to lists and schedules: What are your most effective strategies to working through them?

Four Ideas That I Find Helpful, Part One

A schedule / checklist / to do list / etc.

I’ve written about this before, but awhile back, I was on “the Mighty” (a mental health site, that I am 50/50 on whether I still like).

There, I interact with several people with mental illnesses, asking questions and responding in kind.

One day, I think I asked a variant of the question, “what has been the most important component to your successfully managing severe mental illness?”

Of all the responses I got, I enjoyed the one that highlighted having a schedule!

For me, I already know that I can’t just summon up the energy required to experience a full day of activity.

I just cannot!

So, a few months ago, I said to myself, “What can I do?”

And, that started my working on all the things in a day, that I would love to do if the energy was there.

Hence, the schedule!

It is still evolving and right now it is a checklist of things I can do in and around my home, and I found that just having these items somewhere accessible (whether I got to them or not), has proven helpful to me!

In order for me to even do a third of the items (and have the energy to follow through), I need to sleep 8-9 hours… first and period!

Restful sleep is so very important!!!

What sorts of things do you do daily, that make you feel better?

Striving For That Next-Level Of Functioning

Improved functioning does not occur as easy and as often, as my ambitions of it doing so, are.

In fact, if improved functioning in general were consistent, then that’d be quite the game changer.

As it stands, I struggle to do even the smallest amount of chores every day. Primarily, washing the dishes.

Since I’ve been married, my wife and I have worked out that the one thing I could strive to accomplish every day, would be to do the dishes (this is independent of self-care, which I’ll get into in a bit).

Unfortunately, I don’t get to the dishes every day. I do get to them 3-5 times a week though, and that seems to be satisfactory.

Self-care is a problem too, and I know I’ve got to try there as well.

I aim for showering every three days, brushing my teeth gets done once a day, most days. And, all of this is an improvement over what I did before I was married.

When I look back over the past 20 years, getting both chores and self-care done, has been a big struggle for me.

I wish I could tell you it were easier, but it’s simply not.

Unfortunately, functioning as I do is not understandable by most people in society. That will change. In time. I hope.

Enter the whole reason behind this blog. To shed light on what many sufferers of mental illness, including schizophrenia and related disorders, go through.